do i feel sad

yesterday midnit..u suddenly send me a msg talk a lot of thing..said u useless no money no job..ask me forget u..u tis reli bian tai de a..??y u can keep hurting me??haiz..luckili reli gt gok wai them always bside me consule me if not i reli dun knw i wil how..reli reli thx star too..so sleepy..no mood to said anythg..we r end..i nw tat

wtf..??

early in the morning then quarrel wif mom..wt....reli reli very angry lo..damn it la..i work myself earn money myself stil need keep scold me..i no wif ya take money lo..even take just mayb b one month just gt 50..izit very guo fen a??bok zi..keep scolding me..now u giv me money not should 'tin gin dei yi' ge meh?
u thought i reli wan take money from u meh..?haiz..i no money just take de lo..reli everyday oso gt work find me a..??yesterday nit is luckily boss ady find me work lo..work one hour lik tis then get 100..wah..go wher kutip o..swt..and the winner player giv me 50 for tips..ya..is very happy..haiz...bt very spoil my mood la..

kl girl..

just now i was looking at his fon..i knw i should not check his fon..bt y oweys let me saw a girl tat name chan shin san..he can keep cal her honey honey there..then the girl sure cal him baby too..why wo..??not only one time already lo..haizz..yesterday when he knw tat i saw the girl sms her..y his face straight change to look lik scared a..i dun knw wat the place me inside ur heart..y?y?y?i reli hate it la..i stil cant sleep well tis few nit just bcz of u..can u let me knw m i stil inside ur heart o not..u jealous guy looking at me..bt y dun u nvr appreaciate me..u go for a kl girl..i feel lik u keep lying on me..u nvr told tat kl girl tat u gt gf..u oweys make my heart broken..do u knw tat?..even outisde i look nth..bt u nvr knw how sad m i..i reli reli very tired lo...should i continue tis relationship..i knw better stop it now..the feeling is not happy..

my decision

well..i m at his house now..doin nth whole day..later nit wil go the bed after dinner wif his family..mayb he dun knw tat i reli make decision to giv up him le..today is the last day i meet him..i dont wan make tis relationship bcum more complicated..aiks..i reli dun knw la..he oweys said just b natural..he just ask me tomorrow wan go mount kinabalu o not..hmm..i promise him le go le..hmm..is quite happy when he ask..bt i knw tis happy was not longer..well..he r watching a drama tat very sad now..aiks..bt i watch b4 le..and i not dare watch bcz wil let me think my past ..is so sad..

5/12

morning was at home watch movie i think..until dun knw wat time..audrey find me out ..we go centre point again..aiks..go ther then i waste many money le..aiyoyo..
hmm walk whole day..leg very very pain..and whole nit didnt sleep well make me feel so sleepy..haha..evening go gym wif a lim at damai..haha..1st time tu..very very hot la at there..when finish gym almost fall down de lo..feel headache..haha..
after home done my thing just chat wif my fren oni..damn so many..haha..

pool tournament crew

me,jasmine,and o c po..haha

karen..n me..sexy girl..

mr.chua tat oweys giv me advice..miss him..

12 referee..haha..

sarah,lei lei,me

break again..lol~~

yesterday i dun knw is wat day lai de..dun knw should b happy or what..finally said break..i doesnt knw tat i stil gt feeling on him o not..he keep make me feel dissapointed..haiz..my life a i think back to complicated again le..very anfry my fren tat they r wif ryan lie me..hmm..i dun knw y i m not reli angry ryan..very tired think about him..tis week i almost go kk9 go find star n cheryl them..at least they wil make me happy..can crazy wif them..haha
yesterday nit i go pn wif star..when i m ply game i feel tat i m reli can forget wat i think..no stress or wat..after tat gok wai find us go famosa yam cha..then karen come too le..wow..she looks sexy..haha.when yam cha gok wai said he giv cheryl 'kiong gan'..i was dun knw when cheryl drunk wil luan luan kiss ppl..hahah..she wif karen da k lun..a meh..haha..shocked me la.. a lim ask me go his dad karaoke..bt menz oso called me go lintas yam cha wif fish..lol..kekex i saw derek again le..haha..he so smart ba..haha..and i gt record him n fish o..wakaka..they look cute..we two almost talk until 11 lik tis..after tat go find a lim his dad karaoke..haha..bt me nth to do at there..at last i go back to kk9 find star them..almost 12.30 just arrived home..
i cant sleep well whole the nit..6 oso wake up le..quite tired now..haha..
watever la..now i m missing u..=P

我的生活

我一直被困在放不开的观念里
心很不舒服 就算被开导了
还是会胡思乱想
我是个笨蛋 总是怕这个怕那个
为什么呢？

我好累好累 我很不开心
我想得到你的安慰 但你说我想太多
我知道啊 我也明白
但你是我的男朋友哦
我想得到一个慰问的话那么难吗？

你最近很忙 我尝试体谅你
可是我的脑啊 傻傻的

心中的失望

昨夜
你玩至通宵
我无话可说
临睡前
我的脑海里
一直不时地想着你
我无能为力
打了几通电话
你没接 我也不敢打扰你了
我在想 我们究竟适不适合
我不清楚 我感觉疲惫


今早
你说你像睡多一会儿
我让你
也许是我胡思乱想
心中的不安
让我想放弃了

wat a busy day??

today i went to school fecth yuan n van finsih skul..after tat we three and ryan eat lunch..hehe..after eat fetch vanessa n ryan home..me and yuan go kk do something lo..after we do finsih we go home take cloths and fetch van ..we three go likas kompleks swimming..so big rain lo..when i get inside the car..omg..my shoes wet all o..aIYO..the water deep until my leg..after we finsih swim we went to lintas yoyo..i ask ryan fetch yuan yuan home..when i get inside yoyo saw no nick..even not reli saw his face la..bt i knw tat ah boon keep looking at me..tat 8 gong lai de..i just back home..i so miss my darling now..even gt meet bt js a while oni..aiks aiks

6/10 go yoyo wif yuan,wel,kiat and van

a lonely me..

wel doin wat??haha..he look so funny..


ah kiat shy shy..><

yann yuan doin wat nw??

me and darling..

2/10 just start together for 1 week..haha






12/10 at atmoshepre..

afternoon..

too boring..while waiting stupid ryan dye his hair..lie me de..yer...hehe

just take the 520 star for song..haha



lol..two butterfly..haha

lol..ssing..at home..

me!!

wif siew li at waikiki swimming

funny look..haha

darLing

solou..
my darling..hehe..26/9 sweet~~

27/9

i make de ''wan tan''..hehe nt bad de o..when i eat..haha

escape work..

early in the morning..then need to talk a lot of lie make me feel lik uncomfortable..bt nvm la..used to it oledi..hehe.now i was at his house doin nothing..js at here typing my blog..just waiting him shower finsih then accompany him go eat breakfast i think ..haha..feel lik so sleepy today..
accompany whole daY LE..at his house eat dinner a..when he wan to sleep i keep disturb him..he keep said me very naughty a..lol..after tat out wif vanessa and yann yuan..we go eat burger king..haha..lol..


30/9
work at one borneo until 8..darling come and fetch me..then we dinner at brass monkey..hehe..so happy la..then we go sutera lo..we two at there walk walk oni la..lol..漫步啊，挺浪漫的，嘻嘻

26/9/08 friday

a normal for me..didnt go to school a...afternoon wif him go eat lunch..after finsih eat accompany him go here go there..haha..and tat time very traffic jam a...=P
suddenly he ask me do u understand wat is I....U?i said i dun knw..then he suddenly hold my hand and said i love u to me ..haha..i m happy n feel lik ngong liao..haha..just o o o there oni..=P we just meet one week oni then second week tgt le..i feel lik very fast tgt..and make me feel unsafety to tis relationship..and u spoil my single life..haha..i miss my single life a..

yesterday,u fetch me go work..a boring work..js stand at there oni..until my leg oso tired la...js at there chit chat oni..haha..when nit i m serving a customer,u come into the shop by i dun knw u go inside le,when saw u heartbeat staight feel very fast..bt tat time when u looking me i feel sweet and happy..haha even i scared let ah lun and che fai them knw..=P

darling..i love u much..

work!!

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i work two day at city mall le..stand whole day my leg alomost canot walk le..very pain nw o..

haiz...work for lg promoter..lets talk about yesterday..gt one customer help me buy le 1 lg tv..haha..js because he saw me pretty lo..za dao..knw many new fren too gt angel la..alex la..tis two is when i giv baucher then knw them de..they work saloon de..hehe..another is vincent sim..haha..from miri de..work for faber..he gt a bit sot sot de..other is jack whose sell spec de..haha..and xin yi la..my another promoter fren..

today>>saw many fren o..hehe..rayner,tham,edwa

eat lunch wif kenny today..uncle..js lik kids ply those test wif me..haha

rd,varian and many....

not reli got work today leg was very tired so went to ogawa shop an mo..bt stil canot cure my leg pain..lol..js sit ther n spend time talk wif fren mother..haha..

b4 bak home go jack shop try spec..i lik a spec tat look suit for me..hahaha

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today was yang ming fetch me home..lol..he do jelly to me eat o..haha..nt bad bah..
get a call from bj..haha..when said gud nit keep hai you hai you ther..he nt dare said sumting tu..haha stupiak~~~~~~~~~

full of date..

wake up by 7.30am today..after that eat breakfast wif my family..then go gaya street looking sumting then go home le..thought wil very boring at home then open tv to watch olympic until sleep..bt start from 11.am fon keep ringing to ask me out..lol..fren calling oso lazy ans cal until i wake up..1pm go cx find sean n sze sze..lol..wow..saw shin chan haha..doenst knw he oso wil go those place..and even he oso think me wont go cyber too..haha..very funny..eat lunch wif sean n sze at rch..then kenny cal me ask me go find him at ban mian..bt after tat jasmine cum n meet me ..lol..ah lim cal me go watch movie wif him bt i put him aeroplane le..and talk lie to him tiam..so pai sei le..=='' bcz jasmine wan me join them go k box sing..
knw a guy tat name ah keet..wa..reli very small gas le...keep wan fight wif girl..zzz..make sze very angry him lo..even i stil ok to him la..bcz early oso knw him liao de since from dun knw when ..haha..

Busy day..

yesterday early in the morning wif my sis go fetch tham went to bukit padang jogging lo...after tat edwarn n aloy cum n find us..haha..we went to mount climbing..i m the last 1 climb up..haha..bcz i feel lik wan faint again..no oxygen ther le..when go up ther..my face n lips white white..rest a while then wif them go lintas eat..bt i didnt eat wif them bcz i nid eat wif my mom..hehe..
10.30 got reherse me b4 10 oso arrive magellan le..nth to do at there..
12pm js start practise bcz isaac was late..zzz
1pm wif lions went to the cruise eat lunch..haha
3pm go wisma buy sumting then get news about nn gf mom die le..swt..i no comment..after tat ask fish cum n fetch me
and accompany him eat at rch..haha..5pm js arrived home..
bath liao then fast fast make up..bcz 5.30pm yang ming wil cum n fetch me..haha..
me n sze arrived le then go vip room sitting and make up again..haha..
7.30pm was start dinner already..well..very lucky cz gt a long hand guy help me take food..haha..bcz my hand too short keep nid stand..wakaka..bt our performance was after 3 dishes then need to dance..
was very scary when we dance..too nervous already..haha..after dance finish ah lim cal me n i was out wif him..we go famosa yam cha..then he went to ply snooker i go powernet watch movie..haha..when go ther saw menz them..haha..i was at ther c movie until 11pm lik tis then ask ah lim fecth me home lo..lol..very tired..

my msn has been hacked..

haiz..very no mood since from yesterday...my msn has been hacked..i dont knw wan hw..many thing in the email..wel..yesterday nit think back my past..i felt nt happy again..js hope gt a person tat reli wil care me..i dun knw wat i thinking nw..hw cum my life look lik so compliaceted a..??i hate ppl said me oweys out..u all dun understand me hw cum at outside keep said i oweys out..i nt goin clubbing then u all dun trust me..haiz...

tiReD

now js 3.30am..well..actually want to study but my mind make me to online already..i am memorize my sejarah for half only..i am js received zoom kac picture from zoom..hehe..

start a new blog

well..i m just a start new blog..hehe..nth to write nw..open tis blog for song..=P