do i feel sad

yesterday midnit..u suddenly send me a msg talk a lot of thing..said u useless no money no job..ask me forget u..u tis reli bian tai de a..??y u can keep hurting me??haiz..luckili reli gt gok wai them always bside me consule me if not i reli dun knw i wil how..reli reli thx star too..so sleepy..no mood to said anythg..we r end..i nw tat

wtf..??

early in the morning then quarrel wif mom..wt....reli reli very angry lo..damn it la..i work myself earn money myself stil need keep scold me..i no wif ya take money lo..even take just mayb b one month just gt 50..izit very guo fen a??bok zi..keep scolding me..now u giv me money not should 'tin gin dei yi' ge meh?
u thought i reli wan take money from u meh..?haiz..i no money just take de lo..reli everyday oso gt work find me a..??yesterday nit is luckily boss ady find me work lo..work one hour lik tis then get 100..wah..go wher kutip o..swt..and the winner player giv me 50 for tips..ya..is very happy..haiz...bt very spoil my mood la..

kl girl..

just now i was looking at his fon..i knw i should not check his fon..bt y oweys let me saw a girl tat name chan shin san..he can keep cal her honey honey there..then the girl sure cal him baby too..why wo..??not only one time already lo..haizz..yesterday when he knw tat i saw the girl sms her..y his face straight change to look lik scared a..i dun knw wat the place me inside ur heart..y?y?y?i reli hate it la..i stil cant sleep well tis few nit just bcz of u..can u let me knw m i stil inside ur heart o not..u jealous guy looking at me..bt y dun u nvr appreaciate me..u go for a kl girl..i feel lik u keep lying on me..u nvr told tat kl girl tat u gt gf..u oweys make my heart broken..do u knw tat?..even outisde i look nth..bt u nvr knw how sad m i..i reli reli very tired lo...should i continue tis relationship..i knw better stop it now..the feeling is not happy..

my decision

well..i m at his house now..doin nth whole day..later nit wil go the bed after dinner wif his family..mayb he dun knw tat i reli make decision to giv up him le..today is the last day i meet him..i dont wan make tis relationship bcum more complicated..aiks..i reli dun knw la..he oweys said just b natural..he just ask me tomorrow wan go mount kinabalu o not..hmm..i promise him le go le..hmm..is quite happy when he ask..bt i knw tis happy was not longer..well..he r watching a drama tat very sad now..aiks..bt i watch b4 le..and i not dare watch bcz wil let me think my past ..is so sad..

5/12

morning was at home watch movie i think..until dun knw wat time..audrey find me out ..we go centre point again..aiks..go ther then i waste many money le..aiyoyo..
hmm walk whole day..leg very very pain..and whole nit didnt sleep well make me feel so sleepy..haha..evening go gym wif a lim at damai..haha..1st time tu..very very hot la at there..when finish gym almost fall down de lo..feel headache..haha..
after home done my thing just chat wif my fren oni..damn so many..haha..

pool tournament crew

me,jasmine,and o c po..haha

karen..n me..sexy girl..

mr.chua tat oweys giv me advice..miss him..

12 referee..haha..

sarah,lei lei,me

break again..lol~~

yesterday i dun knw is wat day lai de..dun knw should b happy or what..finally said break..i doesnt knw tat i stil gt feeling on him o not..he keep make me feel dissapointed..haiz..my life a i think back to complicated again le..very anfry my fren tat they r wif ryan lie me..hmm..i dun knw y i m not reli angry ryan..very tired think about him..tis week i almost go kk9 go find star n cheryl them..at least they wil make me happy..can crazy wif them..haha
yesterday nit i go pn wif star..when i m ply game i feel tat i m reli can forget wat i think..no stress or wat..after tat gok wai find us go famosa yam cha..then karen come too le..wow..she looks sexy..haha.when yam cha gok wai said he giv cheryl 'kiong gan'..i was dun knw when cheryl drunk wil luan luan kiss ppl..hahah..she wif karen da k lun..a meh..haha..shocked me la.. a lim ask me go his dad karaoke..bt menz oso called me go lintas yam cha wif fish..lol..kekex i saw derek again le..haha..he so smart ba..haha..and i gt record him n fish o..wakaka..they look cute..we two almost talk until 11 lik tis..after tat go find a lim his dad karaoke..haha..bt me nth to do at there..at last i go back to kk9 find star them..almost 12.30 just arrived home..
i cant sleep well whole the nit..6 oso wake up le..quite tired now..haha..
watever la..now i m missing u..=P